Thoughts from the sickbed.

I woke up this morning, well i was woken up like 10 times this morning by all 3 kids- a very chatty Che kept me up most of the night. When 6am rocked up, i'd been awake for a good half hour, trying to get Che who had migrated over to our bed - and because he'd been feverish and drowsy all day allowed to stay... to just shoosh so he wouldnt wake JC who was also in the bed. Haha i was too tired to fight the kids that night so i spent a good two hours in bed with Tivi who came in at roughly 2 ish complaining that it wasn't fair that everyone got to sleep in mums bed.

ughh.. i'd come home from Cats place slightly outta sorts, my head was hurting and i was insanely tired, and i had probably seemed more agitated than i was and felt a little bad coz i had been a little more forceful than  i intended. Hehehe... sorry Cat, but we'll get to that later.

I got up feeling hideous, my head hurt and felt hot (then cold, then hot) my body ached (it still does) and as i made breakfast i thought, how am i gonna look after the kids today like this? So as Zane was coming to say bye and leave for work, i hugged him n told him i wasn't feeling very well, he felt my head like we do to the kids, said you feel hot and look pretty crappy. He called work, and told me to go to bed. Halfway through feeding JC, i just continued breakfast, got Tivs lunch ready, packed her bag, got her uniform - then went to bed and attempted to read coz i hate feeling like i'm wasting time. I gave up reading pretty early in since my head was filled with ouch... and lapsed into a comatose state.

When i woke up, and got outta bed, i heard Zane snoring from the kids room and popped my head in to find them all, including Stella, fast asleep.

I thought, wow he put them all back to sleep after breakfast? haha and checked the time to find it was 1 something in the afternoon, i'd slept almost 6 hours straight, that's gotta be a record these days.

So first, i'd like to say a big furry Thank you to my husband, who has been wonderful all weekend to me, giving me time on the Sunday with the girls, and today for just picking up everything and letting me sleep and recover. And doing the blog last night, coz he sees the importance of this project in our lives right now.

It's been really nice today to see him take over and the kids enjoy having him to themselves and i know i intervene too much sometimes and it cramps his style haha.. so i made a note to myself to be quiet and let him do it his way more often, to stay outta his way and just let him be. A curtsey to you my good man.

I was tossing up blogging tonight on account of my sorrows with the sick and the tired. But i felt better after Zane cooked us dinner and i read to the kids and Zane hung out the laundry for me hehe... i got online to see what everyone's been up to, and read Cats status about her promotion and felt jolly for her, then Sonny messaged me on msn with hilarious news about his wedding and i felt better and thought i will blog about my day and random things.

I had been feeling a little bad since Sunday at Cats, coz i kinda got into a - uhh 'spirited discussion' with Ivana about Landmark Education and its pushiness with 'recruiting'. Hehehe it's that line 'if you don't do it Now then you're NEVER gonna do it' that set me off, just coz, i don't like being told i'll Never do something... it brings out a-  like she said 'defiance' in me. I defy you people who tell me i will never do something, haha if i want to i would, Want is always the keyword. But it's not a big deal as it sounded, haha i just think inspiration should be naturally contagious, not sold in a package with a programme and seminar dates. I think the heart of Landmark is fantastic and it is awesome to see all these people actively seeking change (or Transformation, sorry) hehe... so yeah i'm not dissin just discussioning.

I think i rambled too much and got off topic a little but i was blah and feeling headachey and aggitated already by that time- so sorry if i killed the vibe for you guys! Haha it was great, but ended on a slightly over confrontational note that i did regret afterwards, but the past is in the past right and that's where it will stay right.

I'm immensely glad for the positive things it's brought into Cats life, and i see all the benefits of such a program  to get people into taking control of their lives and potential right NOW. Hehe and i'm really glad that Lytha and Tram came and i got to hear about their issues haha coz its true we don't often get time to discuss these things in regular get togethers. I'm sorry if i talked over you sometimes Tram, i didn't mean to haha but you know what, you're sooo much more patient than me as a mum, trust me- whatever you've done, i've done it probably 10 times worse... haha Che's in his i don't wanna eat/sleep stage... so you can come to any meal time and watch me 'expertly' handle these children... haha with threats and smacks! (shut up Lytha THEY NEED IT) hahaha...

The only thing i've learnt from this whole accidental parenthood, is that there is no one solution to anything, and if something works one day, there is no guarantee it will work the next. That and, advice is useless in practice. Haha.

Anyhoo, we went to get our travel scripts for the vaccines again, at a Viet doctor this time who knows what she's talking about and doing, haha and when we came out it was raining and we let the kids run home in the rain which was awesome, coz both Zane and I remember how fun it was to walk home from school in the rain as a kid. The kids loved it and for Tivi and Che, this was the favourite part of the day.

Jacies i can't remember i don't think we got around to asking him before dinner was over and we got on with the night.

Zane said he didn't have a favourite part, then he settled for, Letting mummy rest... hehe then when i mentioned the rain as a suggestion to Che, Zanes face lit up and he smiled and nodded coz that was pretty cool!

Anyway, going to the doctors and being reminded of Vietnam, got me a little inspired again to get into really planning this trip. Once in a lifetime to my origins, but the start of many travels to everywhere!! Woot woot.

I'm gonna go get some rests again coz tomorrow its back to playing Mum, but i'll start kicking this blog to funtown soon, coz i gotta show those Landmark people what for. Hahaha (just kidding) i do credit Landmark with the beginnings of this whole thing, and for opening the doors to the invention of very possible possibilities.

I am extraordinarily grateful to have awesome friends specially to Cat, who has always been with me on this search of fulfillment and it makes me really happy to see you take the reigns on life and really push yourself coz you are awesome, bout time you recognised! Haha...

Leet, thank you for the laughs man, you are so funny and yes so positive, i've never seen someone so stressed about finding ONE thing that wasn't working in their lives. Haha... you have a great life and that's okay, guilt free happiness to you! haha...

And once again, today i am MOST thankful to Zane, for the time off, for not complaining at all and for enjoying the time with the kids, it's been really really nice, to let go and know that you've got it all. I love you very much. Thank you.

:)