half asleep

I woke up today - smiling, from the memory of a dream. I was smiling from remembering a smile from the dream. Hehe smiles are too cool.

The dream was silent but full of awesomeness. Of faces i knew a lifetime ago, back when we were young and dramas were trivial. It was just a feeling of freedom and fun and a general shared loveliness.

I've said before how  some  many, of my friendships are based purely on a split second instinct... heck, my relationship with Zane was formed on this fail proof method... haha... but there are people in my  life, who i knew how to love before i'd even met them.

The moment that our lives intersected, it would just be a face to a part of me i'd always known. An instant connection, and this is how it's always been.

These last few weeks I've been exhausted - a little confused by some situations and drained by the circumstances that led to them. I've been blah... and the rain fell, and the week trudged on and i ran on empty and a promise it'd all pass soon.

This morning, the dream brought with it sunshine and blue skies. Memories of teenage years and the friendships  that Facebook has returned to me in grown up forms.

The day, it was full of the possibilities. A reminder, that i would have never dreamed this life for myself, and if it could go this way in those years - it could go anywhere in these coming ones.

So i messaged an old friend, and thanked him for being. For just being at the centre of a place that is always the colour of warmth and laughter in my mind. It was nice, to put thoughts into words and release them to their rightful owners. It was nice to be reminded, even in the silence of a fleeting image- that i've been lucky to be who i am, and to have had the moments that've been given to me. 

When i'm asked, by all those soul searching exercises, what it is i really want to do with my life. What i would do if i could do anything...

I kinda say - well i don't know.. but... i do.

But i guess it's unrealistic, i know i've been told that before.

I've told a handful of people who kinda just smile and i know they think i'm a little bit crazy delusional.

One day i'll write about 80million and the ultimate of Gratitude projects.

But for now... i'm thankful, for technicolour dreams. For sunshine, blue skies, and kids in the back of the car, who fight over who gets to tell me their 'Thank you for's' first.

Grateful for reminders, that are timely.

For all the people of my past, who've been soo awesome. To the people who are here now.

Excitement for the people who are yet to come, i can't wait to meet you.

so tired right now need sleep. Hehe so here are the latests pics of the kids, fresh out of the SD card. I love that they love camera time.