30 days of ideas in my head

I should start doing this today, not on the 1st of any new month or year.

A year is just a another thing that lets me stall.

I'm restless and i'm tired. Sleepy and sick. But all i want to do is drink coffee and make something.

I got annoyed at Zane for making comments about Christmas and my need to give everyone presents when we 'don't have the money to do that.'.

Gosh money. You suck.

Turn it around.

I'm going to give something else. Ideas don't need money. Yet.

But that energy belongs out in the universe of possibilities... i usually only ever share my ideas with Zane.

And for all the criticisms he hears every day, i hope he see's the subtle and immense significance of being the keeper of my ideas. Hehe...

How much money would you need- how much is enough?

A long time ago, we had this conversation and when pressed for a number i said 80.

80 Million.

What would you do with all that money?

I'd invest it in people.

?

Well first i would take away all the financial constraints from everyone i know and care about. That's a lot of people. Family first of course.

Then i would ask them what do you WANT to do.

and i would fund their dream.

I would hire someone sensible to make real investments into things that gave returns and adult stuff i don't know about so we would always generate a liveable income..

Then i would spend my life taking my kids around the world, seeking and learning from and discovering awesome people doing awesome things and i would let the kids see what amazing lives look like and i would give these people the money and resources to grow their awesome dreams and i'd invest... in people. In people and dreams and goodness.

People would take advantage of you.

Maybe. Maybe not. I don't think the kind of people i want to invest in are the type of people who take advantage of others. But if they do then that's okay. We will be okay... the other people won't take advantage and we'll just keep helping them.

You'll run out of money.

But we won't, our sensible funds person will generate enough revenue for us to survive, and we will tell all the people we invest in to pay us back whenever and through whatever way they can and we will always be okay, we will survive on a network of awesomeness.

Why 80 million?

Because 8 is the symbol of infinity standing straight up. The Zero just makes it bigger.

Because...
That's the dream.

The big one.

Haha, i finally actually wrote it out loud.





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In other news i'm panicking because my children are so big now.

They are amazing.

I am struggling with the parenting thing. The being human thing.

They are now 8,6 and 5.

Little people in this big brutiful world. One that i should get to changing, to making nicer for them. One small act of great love at a time.

:)