Hello.... Vietnam.

This photo, was taken at the Refugee camp, on the 'island' where we were being processed before we got to Australia - back in 1981.

I was one and a bit- maybe closer to two... i'm the little 'onion' in the front next to my kick ass ghetto blaster... see i was born hardcore.

I don't remember Vietnam at all, i only know what i hear from people.

At the beginning of planning this trip - at the back of my mind- i always dreaded the 'holidays' with kids. Haha it's been a huge mental hurdle for me- but then the new year came along- and i had the 'click' the moment when everything fits, and there is a distinct shift in focus. 

I'm going back to the place where i was born, where my parents grew up- where my Grandfather lives six months of the year. I'm going with my very own family 30 years after we left.

Mum, it made me a little sad today- knowing the first time back- you wouldn't be there with me. We talked about it every now and then.. and you'd always tell me i could never travel alone. I'd be broke from giving away all my money in the first week.... you always said that with a little smile. I knew you liked the fact that i gave all my money away haha, even though you wanted me to be responsible and save and learn the value of money... you always smiled while chastising. You were proud, just admit it. 

I always saw us going together, heard the stories you'd tell me in my head of people and places and all the things you left behind.

It didn't occur to me until today- when i heard the Hello Vietnam song... and it reminded me, that its true- this isn't just a holiday, it's a discovery of a part of me... that i have never really known.

I reconciled the sad thoughts, with the happy one, that i wouldn't be doing this alone. Instead of learning the history and stories of past, as i would have with you- i get to discover and uncover, build and create- the memories and stories for my kids.

I looked forward to Vietnam with you, because i would have undoubtedly learnt much about who i came from.... now my kids will have this experience. WITH ME. They'll learn where i came from as i learn it. Awesome. 

They are so excited its finally come round! Haha, Zane is jittery with excitement too. We are actually going! On a holiday! Haha to a completely different world- none of this New Zealand bullshit. Hahaha...

Anyway, i need to get to bed earlier than usual tonight- i think its too late for that.

The kids today came with me to my cousin Vickys place, and played with their cousins Zach and Isaac. They all listed this as their favourite part. I remember as kids- loving those family gatherings- making up our games while our parents talked.

How did it get so reversed! Out parents were always so old. I don't feel that old! LOL

Thank you to Vicky and Vinh for the pram! i'm sure we will be doubly thankful when we get there! Thank you for all the invaluable advice and the patient ear and encouragements. Haha i'm always surprised at the extent your generousity and kindness. Thank you so much.

Thanks to Zane who booked the tickets when was ready to give up on the idea for all the indecision. Thank you for putting away all the money and being very responsible with the funds when it came to holiday stuff. Haha, yes i am proud of you too.

Thanks everyone who gave me any sort of advice at all, to Kim whose love for Vietnam provided much needed prodding to my enthusiasm levels. To the girls, who i know are excited for me too as they always are- haha its always exciting when one of us runs off to explore the world. Thank you for always being there to share in the moments with me.

Haha i'm not sure how blogging will work from here on in, but i'll definitely try.

I can't wait to get my camera out and explore the world!! WOWWWWWW i'm going to TRAVEL! Haha like really travel! 

Amazing!

Really excited, what a way to kick start a year! This is our year my lovely shiney, happy people. Everyone can feel that right? The energy in the air?

Haha i know you do- just shhhh *tickles* breathe it in.... hahaha... its an awesome time to be alive, and for all those parents out there- it's an awesome time to recreate the world. For them. Lets make it good!!