Sunday

Haha i'll sort through the photos from Vietnam this week. I wanna do a coupla things with the kids - get some of their stories down. 

Been hella unmotivated- probably because i came home from Vietnam with a cold and its that time of the month again- you know the time before the time of the month when you're hideously tired. Yeah boys- you know what i'm talking bout - right? righhht... haha... 

Just making sandwiches - trying to sort out stuff- keeping my head just half an inch above water for now. The last few posts have been just days- forcing myself to keep it up even if its just the bare minimum. 

I have a lot to talk about- but i'm just not at the right space or energy level. 

Today we went to Karate- to sign up... but we were told Tivi was too young... we pulled out the But we're related to the teachers pets card- and they compromised with the 'Show us that she'll follow instructions' hand. Haha Fail. She hid and refused to kick the board when Thay asked her to. But he smiled told her not to be shy and said we should watch until she see's how the other kids interact and gets more comfortable.

She warmed up as we watched them- we will do this together i assure her, it'll be fun. In the back of my mind i know its gonna be testing for me- i'm the most uncoordinated unsporty person i know. That and i hate commitment. 

Haha but as i've said before... i can't teach my kids by telling them, i never learnt that way- so i guess i can't expect them to- so here's to a year of pushing limits of leading by example. 

She says that next week she'll start with me.

In other news i came up with a plan to steal - one on one time with the kids. Every second weekend of the month we'll have date night- with one of our children at a time. This friday Tivi and i have a date. She's so excited. So am i.

Otherwise- i've been seriously flatlining these days. Can't seem to get back into the swing of it. Post holiday depression - probably buoyed by sickness and aided by femininely ails.

I need a shift. I push.

Universe, do you hear me?

I need some mojo up in here. I also need my kids to get those two days of childcare/preschool at FFW, haha and i need to find my purpose in life. 

If you receive this. Send help. 

Cheers.

Tivi loves school - she says i have fun - but i'm really tired because we do a lot.

Zane is being pushed to do more at work. I feel like i haven't talked to him in ages, even tho we 'talk' everyday. You know when you talk to people and it misses the mark all the time, then it kinda dies off and it feels like unfinished... its been a lot like that lately- and it's probably a lot to do with how i'm feeling. I gotta get this implant out. 

Che loves his lego, and he misses childcare.

Jacie, he's not a baby anymore. He told Tivi to Weave him awone! Coz she was hassling him to wash his hands that had slobber on it and was making their shared popcorn bag soggy.

Hehehe... i like that they chilled today- after spectating at karate, we grocery shopped, let them watch a movie with popcorn, Zane built che's lego plane, we played lego- had dinner and showers and they went to bed. We watched a coupla episodes of our favourite shows. Life is nice on quiet days.