Doing because i can.

Zane said to me ' It's too much... you make so much work for yourself, and it makes you so tired.'

I tell him, that i need to do this, that i need to learn to sew, that i need to get better at baking- cooking. 

He questions the choice of the word 'Need'

I realise as i answer him, what i've not said out loud. 

'I do, i need to do these things.'

'Will you die if you don't?'

"i have been dying. I need to find myself again. Everyone thinks i'm awesome - but me.'

'That's so depressing.'

It isn't... it's pretty cool, i do things coz i know i can do better at this than i have been doing. I NEED to know more, do more, be more... because i'm better than the person i've become. Stop whining, Stop saying 'i Can't' and just do it.

Tomorrow night i'll get the kids to help me wrap up the week. It's almost time to get up again.

Friday- party day :)