Just me and mine

Favourite parts photos:

I have mixed feelings about this one, because i yelled at her and sent her to bed. I did manage to rectify a downslide in the mornings easy going moods by whispering to her that we would start over after her nap, that  i loved her very much. When i came back and took this picture, she was rosy cheeked and glowing. At her best she is always bathed in sunshine. I still unstitch myself moment by moment, find myself questioning the things that escape my lips. She's beautiful and that slight frown breaks my heart. But this picture - is my favourite of hers today.

While they slept, i cleaned the kitchen, did the laundry, prepared dinner. Then as i was kneading another ball of play dough - Jacie woke up - i watched him from the kitchen through the doorway. He woke, got out of his bed walked around to the other side of it - looked at Tivi and CHe sleeping, sat down rubbed his eyes- then climbed back into bed. I thought he was going back to sleep, but he reached for a book under his pillow, opened it up and started 'reading' quietly.

You can hardly see him there but that's my view from the kitchen. When i came in and said hi, he grinned at me - said 'It's not waking time yet mum.' I told him he could wake if he wanted to. He bounced out of bed. Hey guys, it's waking time! hehehe... i miss the other kids at this age.

Che took all the colours of play dough and made an 'island'. He has to remind himself to say DOUGH, because he always called play do - play go until tivi kept correcting him today.

He played island adventures with his figurines, calling me every few minutes to look at wat Blugreen (wolverine) was doing.

It was a nice day, just having my kids all at home with just me.

It's strange, but this is rare to have an entire day with just us.

Tivi said at the end of it 'You rock mum.'

I have to remind myself to believe her, because no matter how much playdough we make, how many games we play, snacks we eat, cartoons we watch - popcorn in paper cups and baths in buckets we have... i only seem to remember the 5 minutes i yelled at them for not packing up - not finishing their carrot sticks - for dragging the playdough from one table to another.

*sigh* i am hard on myself always.

I can't help it.

Tomorrow we go outdoors, wander the streets and search for fun. Tomorrow we will use our minutes wisely.

Thanks also to Jason for the little chat. I learn something new everyday about the people in my life. If i could tell your mum anything, it would be that no matter what it is you've done on the surfaces of your life (and even those things are not as bad as you think dude) you have a warmth in your heart, and a kindness in your spirit that is awesome. It sounds corny and i rarely do corny... but ease up on yourself- i'm glad you have Ang there. Thanks for the moment :)